Will today ever end?

Is it just me or has today gone on FOREVER??? I just looked at the clock expecting it be 8:30 and it is just past 6:30! YIKES!

Thanksgiving dinner was pretty uneventful. We had dinner at my brother and sister-in-law's house. I had so much fun cooking the dinner for everyone and then barely any of the food got eaten. Okay, a lot of food was eaten, just not in proportion to the amount of food I made. So we sent home HUGE trays of leftovers with everyone. I wish I had brought home more pumpkin pie, but it is probably a good thing I didn't. I ate two pieces last night and then a piece of apple pie this afternoon for lunch! :) And I had sweet potato casserole for breakfast! I love Thanksgiving!!!

I have been in a reflective mood lately and trying to figure out what I really want from life. The more I have thought about it, the more I have realized that we really have very little control over our own lives. We have control over our day to day actions and the decisions we make. We have control over how we treat each other, but the big things... that is where we lack control. We can't control when or where tragedy or disease will strike. We can't control another person's actions. I can't make my husband do something he doesn't want to do. I can try to make Hannah do something that she doesn't want to do. But in the end, she really has to decide how she wants to behave. And even when we do make our own decisions, we don't get to control the consequences of our decisions. There is no such thing as a consequence-free action. For every single thing that we do or don't do there is a consequence. We may not feel the consequences for a long time, but there are consequences. And sometimes the consequences don't happen to us. Our decisions affect not only ourselves, but our spouses, our children, our parents, our friends and even perfect strangers. A simple decision like whether to turn left or to turn right out of our neighborhood could potentially be a life-altering decision. How many times a day do you find yourself asking "What if...?" or saying "I wish I had..." I do it a lot, but what good is it doing me? No good at all. We have to take the decisions that we have made and accept the consequences, good or bad, and learn to make the best of our situations. I was recently reading an Anita Stansfield novel, "To Love Again". I love Anita Stansfield's books. But there is a part of the book where one of the main characters is talking with his therapist. By the way, I wish I had a Sean O'Hara sometimes! :) I don't remember if it is the therapist or the character who comes to the conclusion that each event in our lives is a thread in the tapestry of our lives. If you pull out one thread or one event, the entire thing unravels. Our decisions, good or bad, affect who we are. And how we deal with the consequences that come affects who we are and who we become. And my point is... we just have to take what is dealt to us, make the most of it, and get on with our lives, hopefully learning something and improving ourselves.

We have a doctor appointment on Monday morning to find out if we are having a boy or a girl. I am sure I have mentioned this at least 10 or 12 times already. Any predictions??? Maybe I'll post a poll later! :) I think it's a boy. I really really really want a girl, but I think it's a boy. And I am okay with that!

I am going to go scrapbook now before Thomas gets home from work and decides to commandeer the computer! Later...